Do I have antisocial personality disorder?
Admittedly, I’m a pretty big sick fcuk. Blood, guts, gore, people upset, people dying, especially people being tortured as painfully as possible it all gets me excited. Maybe it was because my parents beat me daily, maybe it was because the time I spent in jail for aggravated assault, maybe it’s because all of the drugs I’ve done. I don’t know, but what I do know is that I want a better world for no one. I just want things to go my way. Everything else doesn’t concern me.
I hate fat or ugly people. For some reason whenever I’m walking by them I get so angry, I feel like punching them and beating them up. I don’t even know why I feel this way, it’s inherit, it’s like instinct. And yesterday, this girl got into a car crash outside my house and her entire head split open and I was there watching her and there was blood everywhere and I got so excited, I was biting my lip, my heart was beating so fast and I felt like ruining up to her and kicking her in the head while the paramedics were holding her and watching it pop right off like a soccer ball.
Is this antisocial personality disorder or just what? If it is, do I just continue living my angry self-centered life? Therapy has been shown to have little or no effect in the the treatment of antisocial behavior. There is no cure.